It is weird how events in your life perfectly capture your outlook. Today was a really crap day. I don't mean that as a metaphor, or to be dramatic. I mean literally today just seemed to revolve around crap. First of all I woke up to my drains not working. When you live in the house I live it, you kinda have to except that things won't work and you hope you'll get lucky when what you need at the time is working.
This was not the case for me today as I stumbled in to my bathroom to find that the toilet filled up with shower water and the shower filled up with what I hoped was sink water. As I was frantically running for towels buckets, plungers, roommates, or anything else to plug holes I was thinking about how this half awake morning reflects my general outlook on life. So many times I just kinda hope things go down and disappear so to speak. Like there is some imaginary hole that the bullshit in my life will sink in to.... maybe garble a little and then disappear replaced by clear refreshing water. That is how I suppose I lived my life.... breathing a sigh of relief every time I pushed a magic button to whisk away the bad only to have it deposit itself quietly beneath where I live my life.
Now, I think my metaphor falls through when I develop a better way to deal with all bullshit in my life... But, there is still an important lesson to be learned here. I was sitting in a bar the other day when someone told me that he once heard a quote that said “if people took all the energy they used to make everyone one around them happy and instead used it to make themselves happy, the world wouldn't be such a shit hole” I am not sure that the quote was verbatim, and I do know that he was very drunk. But as I was plunging away at my various drains thinking how much more I could fit under my house those words floated back to me.... “shit hole”. I could help but feel there is some honesty to it. Perhaps my house is clean, perhaps my life is less smelly.... but here I was all day still trying to stop the crap from overflowing in my life.
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